SSM

AM i WEAK? i guess i am...
zzz second ssm already yet I fall out in the morning. but i was really feeling terrible almost vomited out luckily went to toilet and have fresh air. Same thing was surrounded because of demonstration but couldnt take it....felt like crushing myself why the rest can stand and listen to rest of the teachers demonstrating. Guess my strong character keep pushing me right to the end till the point my eyes become watery. Remembering the times we have to stand under the sun with the damn hot uniform and march and march but i never fall out. Now just stand inside aircon room already wan to die lidat... guess its been loong since i have my physical strength and endurance.

Today carrying the 1.1kg of plates. Another torture for me. I tried and tried. Endure and endure. But still couldnt resist the pain on my fingers. Broke down and cried when Mr Zainal spoke to me gently and gave me words of encouragement before i continue again with carrying of plates. I used to think i am strong physically but i guess i was wrong totally. Carrying plates now seem to be a total torture for me right now. ZZZzzz Guess what. I told my mum to buy these restaurant plates and i want to practise at home. I dont believe i cant do it. Sigh. Anyway really thanks Mr Zainal for your small encouragement. Thanks...