classmates

disappointments

there are so much disappointments recently. i really ponder what kind of life i am leading to now. who would ever want a life full of problems that can never be solve. who would ever want a relationship that is lack of insecurities?

but could it be my problem sometimes.? yes i guess so...shall not comment much now..

anyway Mr Goh our apel teacher spoke to us about something that i don't really remember i have ask myself once.

Question was: How do you want to be remembered after your death? How do you want others to talk about you during your funeral?

My reply to him was i want others to remember me as someone who really do whatever it takes or even go the extra mile to help my friends or be there for them if they really need me. Probably someone that is worth to know and worth to remembered for long tt "ohh i have such a good friend in the past..."

Like i said we always being too concern with what we are pursuing that we tend to forget ourselves and what we are having..sometimes we can spend few minutes to slow down our pace so that we can let everything else to catch up upon us including some self awareness of surroundings etc.

anyway i tink the more i said the more blur i get. well stop here..

enjoy some photos later...

虽然我愿意

请让我靠近你轻轻对你说
别让我每个夜为你受折磨
是多么不容易才默默放手

为了我就当作这次为了我
别让我因为你被回忆折磨
而空气凝结了我们的脸孔
我别无选择

* 就算我们之间有什么问题
依然想念着你
虽然被放弃
虽然我愿意
就算我们之间有什么难题
黑夜我还想着你
心碎人孤寂
虽然我愿意
(心还想着你)

再让我靠近你轻轻对你说
当我说我要你从此好好过
是真的否则我怎么肯放手

为了我就当作这次为了我
赐给我你现在幸福的笑容
别让恨冻结了我们的脸孔
请你做选择

Repeat *

心碎人孤寂
虽然我愿意

Today

Was watching the 9pm show and the 10pm show. Well tat is my favourite showtimes for channel 8 and channel u.

Something struck me that was said very true...
We always pursue what we want till the point very seldom many of us will turn back and appreciate what we have. By the point we want to cherish it, to the point we fear of losing it...everything is gone. Sometimes you really wish and how much you wish everything will turn back the same thing and you will start to learn to cherish. Won't it be too late?

this week

I am so bloody tired, been drained out this whole weekend. 2 days of Biz etiquette and 1 day of SSM and 1 day of CYA kills my energy man. Anyway this week SSM i was in Sugarloaf as the counter staff doing the Tabaoing counter. Quite easy job I would say unless there are heavy orders otherwise would be rather free. Thursday was YinZhou and Sarah as headwaiter and asst headwaiter. I guess they did a good job to manage us and guide us through the first operations of Sugarloaf. Well, 4 more weeks of Sugarloaf to go before Top Table!!! oh man....tt need energy to carry plates.
Well I wouldnt say I dont like the F&B line. But it is a very tiring job if I were to take up. Cause there alot of things to take note in the F&B including things like hygiene, service, presentation, inventory and lots and lots of common sense, which I find sometimes I really lack of it. Lolx.

Friday
Was the leader again in CYA this week. Roving around making sure everybody was in the right place. Did a manhunt today looking for a man 75age, wear blue shirt...becuz he was mia and had illness. Walk the T1 transit like shit...and got the info the man was found in T3. -____-! so far larh!

Saturday
Woke up early morning just to prepare for interview. Actually wasnt expecting much the interview then already when I know XXX coming for interview. Looking for positions? If it is the old me back in NPCC, I guess I would have fight my way thru' to get what I want. Now? I just do what others think I am.
What I said in the interview was that my strength and weakness is that I am quiet. Not because I dont talk but rather because I want to observe people and understand others on a different perspective by observing. and .... .... .... I didnt do much to promote myself during the interview because I guess Wj knows about my character and stuff also.
Come to think through the being in the committee is the importance to interact and know others which sometimes I feel I always not doing now in fact. Thus, I felt like I gave others a mystery of what kind of character I was. But nvm....haha I just want everyone to know I am still approachable as before and I am those kind that I will do anything and everything for my frens if they need help =)

STudy time again since there is exams coming.....oh my god..nxt week is jap presentation i havent print my pictures yet. Humph. going to do it this Monday. =)

Monday - Geog travel online test
Thursday - Jap Presentation
Nxt Monday - Mid Sem Accounting Test

*biz eti test coming out...

vesak day eve

supposed to sleep right now...but just hanging on the phone call with him...kinda late..its 3.57AM...
well also too full to sleep anyway....went to eat the steamboat at Suntec city B1 some chinese hotpot restaurant. Wow its very expensive...two person ard $75+..woot! But the service wasnt too bad...just sit down and order as much as you want...later become fat pig lolx...

bought my shoes for formal wear in everbest...now seems to be Great Singapore sales now..20% storewide over there. Haix but still couldnt find some outside shoe that i like. hmmmmm...any one got any recommendations????

my hamsters are awake. goin to disturb them. my pang pang growing old le..got wrinkles. but he is cute and lovable. i realli love him alot....molted seems to be very temperament...kinda dun like her much...haix...one day i will get hamsters that i can breed them. Or even buy a dog. Want a German shepherd or westie..hahaha...hopefully i can buy one sooon when i get older..

tired

kind of very tired...my eyes get very dried and tired these few days....
stomach couldnt stop rumbling for nothing...
felt so sick recently....muz be the stupid weather....hot and cold making me going to die out asap...zzz..

i need more rest!!!! four days holiday wooT...should start to catch some sleep now...

Earthquake and Cyclone

Within days and weeks, thousands and hundreds of people are dead. Can you imagine that. Just within minutes, a human disaster will overcome the whole country. Thousands of people buried alive, thousands of people are drown in water. I just kinda feel sad. I wonder. WHAT CAN I DO TO HELP THESE PEOPLE? 

Wanted to email to lye to ask how can i help. but i tot  he wun like it.Sigh. We as Singaporeans enjoying tv, enjoying shopping, enjoying food, enjoying aircon at home. What can we do to help them?

If i were to start a donation drive, like newspaper collection or even $$ collection...will anyone interested to help??

groupmates

seen pretty ladies before? this are the babes in my project group =)
from left to right.
Jeline, Valerie, me, Mayling, Ignatius, Joshua

Nothin much want to blog about. Kinda tired this week already..SSM idoitic physically draining subject even though i like the rest of the service part in it.

OHH YA! i got into Culinary Science as an elective next term. Means i will be cooking. Dont be surprise if i cook good food! smiles =)

SSM

AM i WEAK? i guess i am...
zzz second ssm already yet I fall out in the morning. but i was really feeling terrible almost vomited out luckily went to toilet and have fresh air. Same thing was surrounded because of demonstration but couldnt take it....felt like crushing myself why the rest can stand and listen to rest of the teachers demonstrating. Guess my strong character keep pushing me right to the end till the point my eyes become watery. Remembering the times we have to stand under the sun with the damn hot uniform and march and march but i never fall out. Now just stand inside aircon room already wan to die lidat... guess its been loong since i have my physical strength and endurance.

Today carrying the 1.1kg of plates. Another torture for me. I tried and tried. Endure and endure. But still couldnt resist the pain on my fingers. Broke down and cried when Mr Zainal spoke to me gently and gave me words of encouragement before i continue again with carrying of plates. I used to think i am strong physically but i guess i was wrong totally. Carrying plates now seem to be a total torture for me right now. ZZZzzz Guess what. I told my mum to buy these restaurant plates and i want to practise at home. I dont believe i cant do it. Sigh. Anyway really thanks Mr Zainal for your small encouragement. Thanks...

NYAA

As Sarah and I was worrying about our SEAL points and take a look at NYAA, I started to pull out my NYAA book and thinking a not should I complete it. Hmm kinda hard question right. Since i'm already 75% done it takes me to complete the diary only. Yes and I should have complete it. Anyway while completing i look into the J06 and D06 Cibtc Instructors Yahoo Group and began to think about the life of a CII. I kinda regret myself that time being kinda young and not so mature, regretting not able to enjoy life as a CII and learn as much as possible. Being there for twice i should be able to guide my juniors along but ended up i'm still being guided and didnt have much happy memories for both course. Was I too young then? Was tinkin maybe if i'm a instructor now maybe i will be able to lead more just like the rest of the older instructors. Sigh sometimes its all about regretting. But i guess i didn regret to join NPCC and join the CI course and ending myself as a instructor. In fact i am proud to be part of NPCC and as a CI course NPCC really taught me alot alot in terms of discipline and lifeskill. I guess without NPCC i wont be who am i now. Days of sweat and tears, hunger and laughter, scolding and jokes build up part of my life and i really miss these happy days all the while. Serving NPCC is just a part to repay to the unit and let the younger ones know what are the other things you can learn from NPCC that is out of drills. Guess its time for me to go back to serve.